vocabulary
montage，unenviable，packing up，montage，cussing，therapy，exhausted.，rage，As far as ，rehearsal，curated，fascinated， warranted，memorabilia，artifacts，no more than ， lay it out，lifeguard，whistle ，mix-tape，capsule，asymmetrical ，haircut ，floorboard， rusted，upbringing，trauma，mythical，captain，drill，redeem，inconceivable ，alcoholic ，rage ，dicey，brunt，protector-in-waiting，teased ，chaos.，diagnose，normalized，addiction，snarky，dessert，unleash，elicited，perceived，flavors，teasing，supposedly，anger，humiliating.，trance，pacing，backstroke.，victimized， giggling，trembling.，marched，bully.，accountable，shame，storytellers，predictably，desperate，disembodied，waned.，dulled，self-destructive ，self-medicating.，numb，anticipator，vulnerability，magnet，grief，therapy ，boundaries，truckload，vigilance ，preparedness，leaning， fragile，scramble，quicksand.，motivation，perpetrating，drill，shithead，stunning
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phrases
- as if 仿佛
- along with 于此同时
- piling sth in 夸张
- get hurt 受伤
- fit in 适应;适合;符合;找到时间（见某人）;安排时间（做某事）;相处融洽;（在特定情形或体系中）发挥作用
- a way of life 生活方式
- pack up the house 收拾屋子
- at some point 在某些时候
- sighing with relief 如负释重地叹了一口气
- hosting this dinner 举办晚宴
- in a stadium 在体育场
- over and over 一遍又一遍
- any one point 每一个点
- mythical suburban bliss 神话般的狂喜生活
- intense emotion 激烈的情感
- turn in an instant 转瞬即逝
- the oldest of four 四个孩子中的老大
- protect from 保护;保护……免受;不受…之害;
- unpredictable swings 不可预测的波动
- protector-in-waiting 候补保护者
- went over 越过;检查
- folding chair 折椅
- A couple of years ago 几年前
- slamming on the brakes 猛踩刹车
- in the passing lane 超车道
- pull over 靠边停车
- speakerphone 免提电话
- superpowers 超级大国
- figure it out 弄明白
- outside the house 在外面
- nothing more than 只不过，仅仅
- reference points 参考点
- set off 动身;出发;启程;引爆（炸弹）;拉响（警报等）;引发;触发;激起
- work out 锻炼;想出，得到（解决方法）;计算出;进展（顺利）;圆满结束;完成;继续（服役）至期满;
- after-school specials 课外特刊
- back then 那个时候
- mental health issues 心理健康问题
- Needless to say 不用说，不必要说
- have a date 约会
- poke fun 开玩笑
- get in trouble for 因某事而惹上麻烦
- engage in 参与;参加；从事；忙于
- run from 逃避，逃离
- become a magnet for 吸引
- sense of observation 观察力
- connect to 与…相连接，连接到…
- late teens 十九，二十岁
- the soles of my shoes 鞋底
- outside my control 超出我的控制
- drowned out 淹没
- principal’s office 校长办公室
- got sober戒酒
sentences
- -I'am not a sentimental keeper of thins. 我不是一个感情用事的人
- - it’s miserable 真惨
- - moments of my childhood 我的童年时光
- - wedding rehearsal dinner 婚礼彩票晚会
- - easily teased for being too serious, and always knowing that we were one sideways glance or one smart-ass comment from chaos. 很容易因为太严肃而被取笑，总是知道我们只是侧目一瞥，或者是混乱中的一句自作聪明的评论。
- - We didn’t move a muscle 我们都没有动
- - a couple of seconds 花费几秒钟的时间
- - On the way home 在回家的路上
- -Be proud of 为什么感到骄傲
- - When things were great, I was the protector-in-waiting, always on the outside of the fun 当一切都好的时候，我是候补的保护者，总是置身于娱乐之外
- - Any question or attempt to understand the things that were clearly not good was immediately shut down in punitive ways 任何试图或执意去理解明显不好的事情，立即以惩罚性的方式关闭
- - It’s awful that xxx xxx太可怕了
- - It’s a sign of our own lack of self-worth 缺乏自我价值的一种表现
- - Hold sb accountable for 让某人负责任
- - Can you imagine ？你能想象吗？
thoughts
- In modern society, most of us want to solve some problems with brief ways , rather than think about the fundamental reasons caused by problem, second times and third times you also encounter the same with problem. so we should learn how to solve it by root.
- Everyone should learn how to love yourself in any time, you will do well when you love other people.
- Keeping silence when you are anxiety and painful, on account of different mood set off the different feelings and ideas
- Any time don't forget your aim that is your guide to deal with problem, unless you will disembodies form your own inner world
- The less is equal to the most,so we should experience joks of less
- The learning is the most important things of life , you will nerve have to stop learning knowledges that are helpful to you, you will make a lot progress every day if you continue
In the end 'the learning will nerve stop'